Drowning in misery and bliss within an endless night ,through an eyeball of a lost child
2023
Wax, Silicone Gel, Clay, Installation
Dimensions variable
This project is related to my autonomic nervous dysfunction. It is not a negative physical experience. Emotions and nerves dart chaotically beneath the skin. Hormones splatter all around the cavity, but they cannot be diagnosed medically.
This strange fever and pain, as well as the confusing sensory experiences, leave me in a trance.
I feel vexed about being trapped in such a sophisticated machine as my body. I imagine some parts of my body escaping from it with the help of certain primal desires, degrading and transforming into some kind of perceptual effusion. They slither stickily, stuttering and pitiful, sneaking out from beneath the skin. Willingly submerged and banished to the frontier of language, they are pure desire machines/secretory devices deprived of initiative.
These artworks,as some creatures,shows a scenario in my imagination, hosting displaced bodies where civilization becomes primitive and crude, engaging in a non-reproductive sexual act. Contrary to ordinary sexual behavior that creates life, these acts are linked to secretion and excretion, symbolizing the desire for death and decay.
“It depicts a moment of divine agony, during which I was instantly thrown back into a lost child's night, plunging into such extreme pain in order to foster an ecstasy that would never end until exhaustion, and could not be escaped until fainting.”